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I humbly request that no one enter the CES from 8:00 to 8:30 pm standard Barge time. I'll be [destroying things] conducting experiments. If anyone has plans I can adjust my schedule to accommodate. [Pleasant pleasant.]

[Filtered to Tim, Dick, Rex, Narvin, Brax, Frances, and Four | Audio]

[This part is accidentally video, it was supposed to be audio. His room is wrecked around the nice blue box. His hands are shaking. He's so angry. He's so mad he's pretty sure he can taste colors. He's that mad.]

Talk me out of it. Talk me out of it, right now. [He pulls in a tight breath around his teeth.] I need... a voice of reason... at the moment. My worst nature is about to get the better of me and I know that it is.

So. Talk me out if it before I do something I regret because I'm having a wretched time of managing it on my own! [All of the furious "R" rolling.]

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[As cool and collected as he can manage.] I would like you to come to the CES with me.

[Private to Stildyne]

There's something you ought to be made aware of, in regards of your new inmate.

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Well... I suppose it doesn't matter. I've talked myself out of meddling more than necessary. I'm proud of that.

I doubt this came up for no reason. Can I ask who it was?

[He's been mentioning it to some people in talking him down, so he's torn. He doesn't want to betray his trust any further. But the fact is, if Rassilon keeps under this illusion it'll do more damage than good. He has hurt people.

He has to stop hurting people. He has to stop threatening to kill them!]

Between you and I, it's Rassilon. He's under the impression that Omega has assured him he needn't graduate or be redeemed. He'll be whisked away once he has a Gallifrey again.

I'm hoping very sincerely that it's in his head. But then again, that might make it even more difficult to convince him otherwise.

Bloody hell. [Of course it would be, wouldn't it.]

Don't worry, Doctor, I won't betray your trust. I don't think Omega would do that, at least I hope not considering that he's a former inmate himself. Have you spoken with him about this?

I need to be honest, Doctor, it's things like this that concern me in warden and inmate relationships. I know I'd want to do the same thing for Sev if something happened, but that wouldn't have made it right.

Even about the relationships we can't help. My brother is an inmate. I can't be expected to refrain from a relationship with him. But it would be completely inappropriate of me to help him escape. Persephone was made an inmate for following the same impulse for a friend. [Among other things, though.]

Of course not. I've loads of friends who are inmates, but I'd never tell anyone I'd just... break them out of here. It fundamentally undermines everything about the Barge that I believe in.

Especially considering Rassilion is the sort who will lord this over other inmates. 'I can escape and you can't.'

I can't believe he'd actually say it. Because you're right, he was an inmate.

Which means someone needs to tell Omega, so he knows.

Well, I told his warden. And what happened with him and the last warden. So hopefully he can get the matter cleared up.

Hopefully. We'll see what happens. In the mean time, Doctor, did I offer you wedding cake?

No! No you didn't.

...Actually, I have a proposal if you might be interested. Something I was discussing with Arkady.

Alright. What is it?

I want to make a therapy centre, to add onto the infirmary. Whenever we have that proposed meeting, I was planning to bring it up, but I wanted to have it fully formulated before I did.

The point of it would be that some people would have options to go to after traumatic floods. A calming voice to talk to, a reassuring cup of tea, advice on how to get out of a damaging warden and inmate pairing. And if someone needs some manner of mood stabilizing medication that would be available in their universe should they leave, we can decide upon that as well.

With only two people, it'll be difficult but doable because we really must be able to speak with a party that's as neutral as possible. It's impossible for me to propose alone. With a few or even several? Completely manageable.

...I know with your recent difficulties, debating bureaucracy isn't one of your strong suits. Neither is it mine. But giving people health and comfort was what was most important, and I have full confidence that we can learn from our former mistakes and use them to assist others.

I think that creating that is the best idea that I've heard in a while. I worry that I'm not a trained therapist, though. I worry that I might make things worse.

[But she had been trying to do it since she'd been here.]

It's funny you mention this, because Sev things I should act as a personal doctor to people. I'm just worried about the state of the infirmary that people would be in when everyone leaves. Doctor Cesaeres is fine, but he's from so long ago and he's acting like he's attempting to take over and I'm not comfortable with it.

Doctor, do you think the infirmary is making me miserable and short tempered?

There are many therapists on help lines that are only volunteers with no formal education. Just someone that someone can talk to, and has been there with that sort of unease and pain. But if you're concerned, I would understand.

[He pauses as he tries to think of the right question, since most of her ill-temper he doesn't see. Being that he can have quite the ill-temper of his own.]

Honestly, how much do you dread discussions about the infirmary any more as compared to how you used to feel about it?

It's worse than having exams and peer review and the later version of you all on me at once, actually.

I'm trying to figure out how much of that is my pride and my anger for the months when I was the only doctor before these blokes have tried to push me out.

I'm not that troublesome, am I? -Wait, of course I am.

Pride is never valuable at the expense of happiness. It seems obvious to say, but harder to wrap one's mind around.

You were a bit git-like when you saw me at UNIT, despite the fact that you were the one who placed me there.

And Sev noticed enough to say something to me. Which is dumb because of course he would notice.

[A sigh.]

I'll see what happens at this meeting then decide.

I've always been hit and miss with UNIT. It was a bit like my "Barge" when I was more prone to reveries in velvet. I couldn't leave until I'd managed proving myself.

So I read when I joined up.

I met Jo once you know. She doesn't remember it, but I did.

Wasn't she wonderful? I always thought she was.

She definitely was. Mad as a hatter, but wonderful nonetheless. I found her in Africa of all places.

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