15 January 2011 @ 12:23 am
[Video] (Dated to after everything is over)  
[The Doctor is sitting against his TARDIS cross-legged. The journal is positioned in sort of an upshot as it's propped on his legs. His hat is off. Actually, he lost it in the hall, his umbrella too. No idea where they are. He might have the TARDIS make another. Right now, he's just sitting and holding a little plush animal. It looks like a baby toy, and resembles a bear with sabertooth fangs. It's actually a sehlat, but he doesn't know what in the cosmos it could be.

He still hurts, but he's been with the old girl long enough that most of the damage is sorted out.]

I thought... maybe, with my end, the worst of my actions would go with me. I didn't want to think they would carry on. [He turns the toy over to look at it's little nubby tail. For a moment, beady stuffed animal eyes and nose fill the screen, before he moves it away again.] I suppose we all have our nasty and unfortunate sides. Just as every one ought to have a good one.

For those of you I've not introduced myself to, I'm Dr. John Smith. [This time, he just leaves "the Doctor" off. He's obviously bothered at the moment, in a distant sort of way.] I can't guarantee you I'll do the right thing all the time. I'm far from perfect, but I'll make the attempt. [He sort of chuckles awkwardly to himself.] As if they need to be told that I'm not perfect. [He mutters this to the stuffed whatever, and he shakes his head and the bit of smile wanes.] I'd like to thank Billy for lending me a hand in the hallway. Quite noble of him. When I'm done here... I was wondering if there was someone that could point me in the direction of a little patch of sky where a weary old Time Lord might roam for the rest of his regeneration. It's an impossibility to return to my own universe without upsetting the balance and I'd like to have a distant shore that I could explore.

[He holds the stuffed animal up closer to his face.] I'm not quite sure what this is supposed to be. The TARDIS left it on the console. [He's more than a bit distracted and admittedly all over the place. Being thrown into walls by everything he ever feared about himself can do that to you.]

[Private to Rex and Tim]

I'm not leaving you. I simply need to know where I can go when it comes time for you to leave me.

[Private to the Infirmary]

I apologize for being absent for a bit. I did something very unintelligent. I'll make it up to you tomorrow when I'm better fit to move about.
 
 
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[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 04:31 am (UTC)
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Why?
championoftime: 7 - fine then[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 04:35 am (UTC)
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The things you couldn't do? I could.

It doesn't matter. I need to keep striving forward.
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 04:44 am (UTC)
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...is this about Skaro and the Daleks? I had my reasons.
championoftime: 7 - dreary[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 04:47 am (UTC)
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You were right in your reasons. I was wrong. And I didn't stop there. I used people as pawns in a despicable game of chess. Ones I cared about most, placing them in positions I hoped would affect history in the way I hoped would go properly, even if it meant hardship and difficulty for them.

That's why I feel for the inmates here. I really want them to become greater individuals.
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 05:22 am (UTC)
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I'm sure you're being too hard on yourself. You can't have been as bad as you say you are. We're our own worst judges, especially when there are multiples of us.
championoftime: 7 - mulling[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 04:48 pm (UTC)
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Perhaps. It seems as though for all my planning and manoeuvring I didn't actually accomplish much to the end I'd hoped to.

The last time there were this many of me involved in something, Rassilon and the Master were there as well...
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 04:49 pm (UTC)
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That's hardly reassuring.
championoftime: 7 - disbelief[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 04:51 pm (UTC)
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Which part? Oh yes, the whole thing might be...
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 04:52 pm (UTC)
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All of it. Multiple versions of us, Rassilon and the Master? It seems like a picture-perfect plan for 'something going wrong'.
championoftime: 7 - perplexed with mel[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 05:28 pm (UTC)
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I'll be perfectly honest. For all the complaining I just did on my own sordid behaviour, it does give me itchy fingers. [Oh, what he'd do for another good round of chess.]
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
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[And because Four knows himself well...]

I can come visit you after I visit my fifth self if you want.
championoftime: 7 - peek![personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 06:30 pm (UTC)
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I'll be here. Braxiatel is coming to give me some company, so I should be fine in the meantime.
[identity profile] doctor-scarf.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 06:31 pm (UTC)
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Good ol' Brax. Well, I'll see you soon.