15 January 2011 @ 12:23 am
[Video] (Dated to after everything is over)  
[The Doctor is sitting against his TARDIS cross-legged. The journal is positioned in sort of an upshot as it's propped on his legs. His hat is off. Actually, he lost it in the hall, his umbrella too. No idea where they are. He might have the TARDIS make another. Right now, he's just sitting and holding a little plush animal. It looks like a baby toy, and resembles a bear with sabertooth fangs. It's actually a sehlat, but he doesn't know what in the cosmos it could be.

He still hurts, but he's been with the old girl long enough that most of the damage is sorted out.]

I thought... maybe, with my end, the worst of my actions would go with me. I didn't want to think they would carry on. [He turns the toy over to look at it's little nubby tail. For a moment, beady stuffed animal eyes and nose fill the screen, before he moves it away again.] I suppose we all have our nasty and unfortunate sides. Just as every one ought to have a good one.

For those of you I've not introduced myself to, I'm Dr. John Smith. [This time, he just leaves "the Doctor" off. He's obviously bothered at the moment, in a distant sort of way.] I can't guarantee you I'll do the right thing all the time. I'm far from perfect, but I'll make the attempt. [He sort of chuckles awkwardly to himself.] As if they need to be told that I'm not perfect. [He mutters this to the stuffed whatever, and he shakes his head and the bit of smile wanes.] I'd like to thank Billy for lending me a hand in the hallway. Quite noble of him. When I'm done here... I was wondering if there was someone that could point me in the direction of a little patch of sky where a weary old Time Lord might roam for the rest of his regeneration. It's an impossibility to return to my own universe without upsetting the balance and I'd like to have a distant shore that I could explore.

[He holds the stuffed animal up closer to his face.] I'm not quite sure what this is supposed to be. The TARDIS left it on the console. [He's more than a bit distracted and admittedly all over the place. Being thrown into walls by everything he ever feared about himself can do that to you.]

[Private to Rex and Tim]

I'm not leaving you. I simply need to know where I can go when it comes time for you to leave me.

[Private to the Infirmary]

I apologize for being absent for a bit. I did something very unintelligent. I'll make it up to you tomorrow when I'm better fit to move about.
 
 
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[identity profile] christ-onabike.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 05:32 pm (UTC)
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...I thought that were just folks which got attacked? [Paddy was mildly out of all of that because aaah, freaking out inmate]

Thing is, this ain't the first time either. So... I'll talk to her. There ain't gonna be much she'll trust you with, I'll tell you now.
championoftime: 7 - crosslegged[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 05:35 pm (UTC)
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When he first acquired the item, there was an enormous psychic release. I... well I suppose you could disturbingly liken it to a flatulence of pent up hostility and hatred.

That makes it sound less terrible than it was, but I suppose the analogy is sufficient.

She seems very afraid of being judged for her actions. I'm certainly the last one who could, so I would be as gentle as possible.
[identity profile] christ-onabike.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 05:37 pm (UTC)
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The sword let one rip. That is too fucking funny.

Just, y'know, if she refuses to talk about something, then she refuses. There's a lot of shit I doubt she'll want to go into, and I ain't gonna make her. But she could do with help.

And could do with seeing that this isn't just a bad fucking thing. Which I figure it isn't, she's just only seen the bad side.

Right?
championoftime: 7 - let's not be hasty[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 06:21 pm (UTC)
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Seeing isn't a bad thing. Not really. It gives you room to prepare. Or even twist it so that the results are better. Though this is admittedly done best with a clear and concise mind and that seems to be something she needs desperate help with. It's a large burden she carries around with her.
[identity profile] christ-onabike.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 06:23 pm (UTC)
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It's a fucking huge burden. And it ain't really fair on her.

But if I can help her deal, I can help her deal. More like... if you can, mate, because I dunno what else to do.
championoftime: 7 - merp[personal profile] championoftime on January 16th, 2011 06:36 pm (UTC)
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I'd like to help. [He'd rather help than sulk. It makes him feel worthwhile.] And for the record, I did know that you make it to her. No precognitive abilities necessary.
[identity profile] christ-onabike.livejournal.com on January 16th, 2011 11:57 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, well... I'll get back to you when I've talked to her.