15 January 2011 @ 12:23 am
[Video] (Dated to after everything is over)  
[The Doctor is sitting against his TARDIS cross-legged. The journal is positioned in sort of an upshot as it's propped on his legs. His hat is off. Actually, he lost it in the hall, his umbrella too. No idea where they are. He might have the TARDIS make another. Right now, he's just sitting and holding a little plush animal. It looks like a baby toy, and resembles a bear with sabertooth fangs. It's actually a sehlat, but he doesn't know what in the cosmos it could be.

He still hurts, but he's been with the old girl long enough that most of the damage is sorted out.]

I thought... maybe, with my end, the worst of my actions would go with me. I didn't want to think they would carry on. [He turns the toy over to look at it's little nubby tail. For a moment, beady stuffed animal eyes and nose fill the screen, before he moves it away again.] I suppose we all have our nasty and unfortunate sides. Just as every one ought to have a good one.

For those of you I've not introduced myself to, I'm Dr. John Smith. [This time, he just leaves "the Doctor" off. He's obviously bothered at the moment, in a distant sort of way.] I can't guarantee you I'll do the right thing all the time. I'm far from perfect, but I'll make the attempt. [He sort of chuckles awkwardly to himself.] As if they need to be told that I'm not perfect. [He mutters this to the stuffed whatever, and he shakes his head and the bit of smile wanes.] I'd like to thank Billy for lending me a hand in the hallway. Quite noble of him. When I'm done here... I was wondering if there was someone that could point me in the direction of a little patch of sky where a weary old Time Lord might roam for the rest of his regeneration. It's an impossibility to return to my own universe without upsetting the balance and I'd like to have a distant shore that I could explore.

[He holds the stuffed animal up closer to his face.] I'm not quite sure what this is supposed to be. The TARDIS left it on the console. [He's more than a bit distracted and admittedly all over the place. Being thrown into walls by everything he ever feared about himself can do that to you.]

[Private to Rex and Tim]

I'm not leaving you. I simply need to know where I can go when it comes time for you to leave me.

[Private to the Infirmary]

I apologize for being absent for a bit. I did something very unintelligent. I'll make it up to you tomorrow when I'm better fit to move about.
 
 
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[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 17th, 2011 11:40 pm (UTC)
I'd miss you.
championoftime: 7 - so very perplexed[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 12:39 am (UTC)
I missed you, too. And I would again. [But he doesn't like the idea of him dying on this dangerous boat.]

Are you afraid?
[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 18th, 2011 12:48 am (UTC)
I guess.
championoftime: 7 - 7[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 01:03 am (UTC)
You've managed to do something grander than I could. That makes me very proud, you know.
[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 18th, 2011 01:26 am (UTC)
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I'm sure you could redeem an inmate...although I suppose it's surprising I did it first, Omega wasn't exactly difficult to work with. I mean, in his file it talked about how he was at my age. A genius, likes puzzles, and annoyingly curious. It could have been talking about me at that point, and I certainly would have been desperate to get out any way I could if I ended up in an antimatter universe..
championoftime: 7 - dreary[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 02:35 am (UTC)
[Private]
Oh, I probably can. I might even, one day. That makes me no less proud of what you've accomplished. And you were successful where I wasn't. You ought to value that.
[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 18th, 2011 02:37 am (UTC)
[Private]
Well...I do.
championoftime: 7 - describing[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 02:40 am (UTC)
[Private]
Then, if you stay, stay because you've learned you can manage great things. And when you're prepared to leave, also leave with the knowledge you'll have my reflection and my aid. You can do better than you've given yourself credit for.
[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 18th, 2011 02:43 am (UTC)
[Private]
...okay.
championoftime: 7 - penetrating gaze[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 02:46 am (UTC)
[Private]
I'm going to pester you until you sound as if you believe it. And if there is anything I'm quite successful at it's being bothersome.
[identity profile] alzarian-youth.livejournal.com on January 18th, 2011 02:56 am (UTC)
[Private]
I believe it!
championoftime: 7 - i haven't a clue[personal profile] championoftime on January 18th, 2011 02:58 am (UTC)
[Private]
Good. I'll make you believe it even louder next time.