06 May 2011 @ 08:36 pm
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[And here is the Doctor, looking contrite. He has his journal propped up unevenly, and he's draped and covered in criss-crossing cords and wires and he's not looking at it. He's barely even in the frame. It's more like he hit the first button to turn it on (which happened to be video) rather than actually was going out of his way to give a presentation.] My first inmate here was a terrible man. Most of you remember him, or at least are familiar with his name. The Joker, he called himself. He liked to do terrible things to see how far that he could drive people. Some absolutely claimed that he couldn't be redeemed. [He rolls the "r" for redeemed, and then grunts as he tights something.]

He was capable of unspeakable acts of cruelty for no other purpose than to inspire a reaction, his attachments formed in malice and obsession with little fond emotion behind them. But I enjoyed being his warden, I can admit that now. Not because I approved of him or his ideals, but because it gave me a sense of purpose. I was doing something wonderful in attempting to control what was practically the human personification of disaster. It was as though I was presented with every dark and terrible thing about mankind and told that there was the most slim of chances that I buried under all of that destruction and careless hostility and chaotic resistance to empathy and told somewhere under all of that there was the slim chance of a shred of decency. If I could muster a grain of respect from the maniacal madman I had done the world some good. It wasn't my fault that he was here, but I could put genuine effort into stopping and guarding over him.

[He stops to look at something. Stares at it as if he's attempting to bore a hole through it.] I think I broke it- [And on he goes.] In any case, my second inmate was Persephone. What was good had been obvious from the start when she came. Somewhere along the line, this place did to her as it does to many. It corrupted her. It drove her to distraction and when she was placed under the greatest of strains circumstances broke her. She wasn't all that terrible, just a bit misguided and changed as a bad season would change the environment.

I couldn't quite tell you why precisely. Perhaps it was all the times that Death laughed in my face, literally, and mocked taking those that I loved. The times the Gods of Ragnarok- not yours, Loki -but the times they entertained themselves with the suffering of humans as if they were little more than ants. Or Fenric, feeding on evil since the dawn of all things. The Scourge, devouring on fear and twisting victims on their side of the void. It frustrated me to see what could potentially lead to that, no knowing how someone as inhuman as I could give her a greater appreciation for human life. In the end, I simply couldn't manage as a warden in relating to her.

[He turns to adjust the volume and then squints at the screen.] Oh, I had the video on. As I was saying, though, I owe it to her and her warden to say that I didn't choose not to warden her any longer because she was terrible or salvageable or unworthy of my efforts, especially when I was willing to stand by my previous charge through his monstrous behaviour. Simply that a human would be more fitting than a very old man who suffered so long at the hands of gods. So, to Persephone, you've my apologies and best wishes. [He gives a little wave, before switching the feed.]

[Private to Buffy]

Have you had a chance to give some thought to my proposal?

[Private to Dallas]

I saw that you've had concerns with a new arrival. Do you want to talk?

[Private to Tim]

How did that extra hour go?

[Private to Narvin.]

Pub. Now. Don't forget your shoes.
 
 
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championoftime: 7.2 - i haven't a clue[personal profile] championoftime on May 7th, 2011 08:31 am (UTC)
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I thought I deserved a happy ending. [He shrugs, jutting out his lower lip.] Did you know that my favourite genre of novel is romance? Facing the future with hope is the most wonderful ending that I can imagine. Especially when you needn't face it alone. But normally I know that- Well you've seen Rose. Martha. [He shakes his head.] Why would I be so cruel and selfish that I would inflict myself upon anyone?
Narvinektralonum: cartoon[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 7th, 2011 08:54 am (UTC)
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Endings by their nature aren't usually happy. And isn't that the great tragedy of life, that all things including life itself must invariably end? [This is what you get for talking romance with a pessimist.] Face the future with too much hope and you'll only disappoint yourself.

Although your companions don't appear to see you as a cruel and selfish infliction upon them. People flock to you, in all your incarnations. When I first arrived here and voiced my concerns about you as a warden they rushed to your defence.
championoftime: 7.2 - so do you want to have lunch[personal profile] championoftime on May 7th, 2011 09:07 am (UTC)
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They do. They do. [He nods slowly.] Even when I leave. Even when they're hurt by me, abandoned. They're always incredibly loyal. [He points at Narvin.] Don't tell me your own hope is waning.
Narvinektralonum: :-\[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 7th, 2011 09:22 am (UTC)
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My hope is always cautious at best. Very few things go entirely as I want them too.

I can't go with him until Gallifrey is safe. Or until I've lost all hope of saving it. It's a bit of a bind, isn't it? A strike against the optimists of the universe. I either give up hope of my planet and my people having a happy ending or I give up hope of my happy ending. Or I somehow miraculously save a doomed race. [Although damned if he knows how to do that.]

And what, other than your guilt, prevents your supposed happy ending?
championoftime: 7.2 - sadface with mel[personal profile] championoftime on May 7th, 2011 09:50 am (UTC)
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Circumstance. I'm not as fortunate as you might imagine. Most of those people defend me, yet circumstance rips us apart time after time. They like me because I remain optimistic. For every terrible, abysmal occurrence that happens, a good thing occurs.

[He took the bottle of brandy to pour himself another drink.] Save individuals, Narvin. You'll make more progress. [Because the planet is doomed. In so many timelines its doomed.] Speaking of which, it seems like your inmate is having some difficulties.

Narvinektralonum: troubled[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 7th, 2011 10:35 am (UTC)
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I'm not good with individuals. I can believe in a culture, in an ideal, and be ready to die to defend it if I must. But there aren't many individuals about whom I can feel the same. Barely a handful.

The obvious solution to your dilemma is to get yourself killed while doing something suitably heroic and compassionate and foolish--as you do--while your relationship with a companion is at its strongest. Go out on a relationship high note, in effect. [Narvin sometimes has a dark sense of humour. He takes another drink, a longer one this time. Finishes the glass and pours himself another.]

My inmate. Yes. He had his heart set on me running the library. He thinks that I'm the only person capable of the appropriate amount of cultural understanding to give him the freedom to take proper care of the books. Which, although I'm pleased that he trusts me and that we've managed to get along well, I can't stop thinking that the whole situation is a bit ironic since generally the CIA "understands" alien cultures only so it can infiltrate or undermine them.

I've also started to wonder if part of the reason I like him is something more sinister than I realized. If I'm right, it's as much a condemnation of myself as it is him.
championoftime: 7.2 - scuze me?[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 04:31 am (UTC)
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I think I might possibly know another way that Gallifrey might have been saved, but it would require a sacrifice you would be unwilling to make. [And would call into question Narvin's loyalties.] Oh, that's not a happy ending at all! Hasn't anyone told you how happy endings are supposed to go! The princess pricks her finger, falls asleep, they put her in a bed, the pea under the matress gives her bruises and then the handsome prince wisks her off into the sunset where people stop hurting her, and her future dilemmas involve troublesome children.

[He folds his hands over his glass.] Oh, what's so sinister about you liking him?
Narvinektralonum: CIA[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 04:47 am (UTC)
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Sacrificing my life isn't good enough?

[Narvin stares at the Doctor with a furrowed brow at his description of a happy ending.]

What does the time of day or solar position or whatever it is have to do with a happy ending?

[He takes another sip of brandy and a page from Braxiatel's book of "How to Avoid Giving Direct Answers to Direct Questions."]

You met Inquisitor Darkel on Space Station Zenobia in your last incarnation. [Narvin says it as a sure fact. He was a high ranking agent by then and the CIA had their fingers all over that trial.] What did you make of her?
championoftime: 7.2 - do tell?[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 04:52 am (UTC)
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You might have potentially sacrificed the wrong life. [He drink about half the glass, because he has terrible manners. Except for-] I don't believe I'm allowed to use those words in polite company. And my opinion isn't even as... directed as it was.
Narvinektralonum: three-quarters[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 05:09 am (UTC)
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You're talking about assassination. Of whom? Who do I have to kill to save Gallifrey? Other than your future self. [He doesn't really mean that last bit. Probably.]

I don't think anyone's ever classified my company as "polite" before.

She had extensive knowledge of the law and was utterly devoted to the old traditions. She was also duplicitous, arrogant, and xenophobic.
championoftime: 7.2 - now what do you think that is[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 05:19 am (UTC)
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Polite enough that you shouldn't hear what I think of her. [That first question he purposefully leaves alone. He wants to bring that up with a good opening.]

Have you any idea how to point out that his behaviour might have been destructive?
Narvinektralonum: no shame[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 05:48 am (UTC)
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I have some ideas along those lines. I sympathize with his situation, and agree with his alleged motives, if not his means. It was the same with Darkel, although by the end I think she'd forgotten what her original motives even were. I wonder if the same thing happened to Ardent. In his zealousness he forgot that for a true patriot the lives of his people should be the most important thing.

[He pauses, takes another sip, and changes the subject (a little).]

I've decided that humans are a tolerable race. [He says this solemnly. It only took six months of sleeping with one to come to this conclusion and be able to admit it to himself. Baby steps.]
championoftime: 7.2 - fidgety[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 05:53 am (UTC)
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Narvin, you're a Time Lord. You may not be good with individuals, but you can see clearly, if you focus, how the life and characteristics of another can affect a world. [He holds up his now half empty snifter] It seems that among us there were few adequately prepared to deal with wide-scale invasions, form unions, organize tactical resistance. Ah, [he perks] but it seems that a human could. A human with no ambition for power, but a thirst for knowledge and the desperate will to protect. Intrinsic behaviour that remains despite documented manipulation of his personality and reorganization of his memories. A president like that could win the war, restore Gallifrey to its former glory, integrate it into the political structure while maintaining its culture through gradual introduction of elements, and all it would take is one run through a chameleon arch, an agreeable House to falsify their records, and elements of memory manufactured from the Matrix.

[He tilts his head at Narvin.] A very probable way to win, if you consider the trails of consequence, with the sacrifice of a single human. But you wouldn't do that, would you? And should you? No. If we can't even choose our Presidents without a dependency on nostalgia and without a shred of true practicality, from our own stock, do we really deserve to win that war? Would it be worth it?

How would Ardent's characteristics, as they are, affect his world? We already know what he's capable of aboard the Barge.
Narvinektralonum: troubled[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 06:21 am (UTC)
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[Narvin gives the Doctor a hard look.]

The CIA could easily falsify a past, but the chameleon arch would destroy the human personality and all his previous memories. I'd sooner declare myself Imperator. But winning a war is never about who deserves it, but who's strongest and most ruthless. It's difficult to be more ruthless than the Daleks and believe me, we tried.

[Talking about Ardent is easier than talking about Gallifrey.]

In his own world, I think Ardent would prevent his people from progressing. They would continue to define themselves according to a historical lie.

[He sighs. His cheeks are warm from the brandy.]

Why did you ask me to come here? I doubt it was to talk about Ardent or Gallifrey all night.

championoftime: 7.2 - don't look at me like that[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 06:37 am (UTC)
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You shouldn't be more ruthless than the Daleks. It has just as much to do with creativity, not ruthlessness. But I've never been a fan of war. [He stares at Narvin as he explains Ardent's predicament.

And then.] We needed to discuss Arthas. And I wanted to apologize for the me that wasn't me but made me very uncomfortable. And I wanted someone to- [He makes a vague motion with his hands, just sort of around him.]
Narvinektralonum: smirk[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 07:07 am (UTC)
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[Narvin is good at making clear headed assessments of other people's flaws and predicaments, but it takes a bit longer for him to see his own mistakes and he's near-blind to Gallifrey's flaws.]

I consider everything that happened last week essentially an alternate time line that has no bearing whatsoever on who we are. [He smirks evilly.] Otherwise, you asking me out for a drink might have given me the wrong impression.

Yes, Arthas. What's your plan? I can't imagine you'd let an opportunity like that slide--full access to his mind--without taking at least a little bit of advantage. Perhaps plant a hypnotic suggestion that he lead a peaceful life for the remainder of his existence? For his own good, of course.
championoftime: 7.2 - deep in thought 2[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 07:11 am (UTC)
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[He sulks at the drink thing, as if he just thought of that. His woefully innocent (forcibly innocent) mind finally catching up to him.] Of course not- really, you must read A Clockwork Orange at some point. Dreadful book, but makes a terrible point about human behaviour. These psychotic rages? This anger? A good deal of it is because he feels he has no control. Him being able to resist the urge is more important. A hypnotic plant would wither under the slightest invasive influence and what we want is people not using his body and driving him to destructive rage later.
Narvinektralonum: lookin' round[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 07:21 am (UTC)
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Assuming you're correct and teaching Arthas control is the best way to reduce the threat he represents...what do you suggest? His mind is only human. He might be able to be trained to sense a psychic intruder, or block casual scans, but the chances of him being capable of protecting his mind from invasion from a full psychic attack are slim.
championoftime: 7.2 - crosslegged[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 07:27 am (UTC)
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His mind isn't even human. It's dead. Why are the dead the first to rise during psychic threats? Why do Daleks hardwire fresh corpses to their whims more frequently than even normal humans? But I've seen a Priest wield off a horde of vampires. Sgt. Howie was immune to the plague Arthas created. A companion loyal enough to me can create a psychic barrier capable of blocking out even the strongest of otherworldly invaders. He's at least willing to try, and willingly of his own choice and without undo influence agreed to not kill anyone during the progression of his studies.
Narvinektralonum: rly?[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 07:32 am (UTC)
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So that's your plan? Will power? It might have worked for Omega, but Arthas is no Founder.
championoftime: 7.2 - alone[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 07:36 am (UTC)
[Spam] I keep reading that "Ain't no founder". I'm reading Narvin in hickspeak oh god!
I said I've seen it work. It would be difficult but I'm confident it can be done. Not to the point of establishing resistance to floods entirely, but someone like Barron Sharpe? Certainly.
Narvinektralonum: you have my attention[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 07:41 am (UTC)
[Spam] Hey, maybe during the Western breach?
All right, I'll let you take the lead for now and if it doesn't work we try things my way. What do you want me to do?
championoftime: 7.2 - my you are tall[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 07:48 am (UTC)
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The CIA is... rough with it's telepathy teaching, isn't it? Well, for one thing I ought to teach you how to do more than implant a suggestion. Most Time Lords don't know how to do this- in fact, I couldn't in my other incarnations, but do you know how manoeuvre someone else's form?
Narvinektralonum: sinister green[personal profile] timesbureaucrat on May 8th, 2011 07:58 am (UTC)
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Rough, yes. General CIA telepathy training emphasizes interrogation and mental defence and not the subtler skills. We had a special subdivision for when those sorts of things were needed. I know the theory behind puppeteering, but I've never done it.
championoftime: 7.2 - deep in thought 2[personal profile] championoftime on May 8th, 2011 08:12 am (UTC)
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You have to be a bit detached from your body to make it work. As with when you slow your metabolism or go into a healing trance. Only you turn your senses off... [He looks at the glass] I'm not very attached to this form. Sometimes its for the better.
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